First day done! New Jewelry!

 Hi,
I had my first day of chemo. It went very well. Things are very streamlined and much quicker. Instead of 30 minutes of anti nausea drugs.....a pill!!! Instead of 2 hours of dripping Vidaza- 30 minutes! I had a private room and James was with me. I barely had time to listen to my chemo affirmation tape and I wwas done. The nurses were great and I saw Dr. Douvas (hem/onc) too. He's great, as well. I feel good- I'm about to do some work and then hang out on the hammock and visualize. Here's hoping the next 6 days go as smoothly.
I've been juicing meditating and visualizing. James has been doing lots of EMDR with me which helps so so much. Seriously people, marry a therapist!!!
Thanks for all of the good wishes and love. I need it. I wore my Virgin Mary necklace  (thank you Mari) for power and strength.
I'll write tomorrow.
En la luche,
Beryl

Doc says go!

Hi,
The doc called and said my bloodwork looks good and I can proceed to Chemo next weds. I've already worked with my acupuncturist and energy healer too. I am working in the garden today and later on I plan to lie on my hammock, eat organic cherries and read a trashy novel. Living the dream.
xoB

Latest from Chemo town

Hi,
I met with the chemo doc- Dr. Douvas. James and I liked him. He seems very conscientious and was very open to our many many questions. He said he thought me being so far along (almost 5 years) was possibly in my favor- he thought the fact that it took so long for for old cells to reappear meant I was strong and resisting the cells. He was cautiously optimistic. The whole vibe at the Emily Couric Center was good. Very light, well staffed and everyone was pleasant.
So..... the deal is this is about a 6 months thing... chemo, chemo, more donor cells, chemo, bone marrow biopsy, more donor cells and chemo. They'll probably do the biopsy's pretty often to see how I'm doing. At this point I will be completely donor again and I'll be awesome and that will be the end of my MDS. That's my plan anyhow. I do chemo for 7 days in a row (including weekends), then rest 3 weeks then start again. I start the chemo next weds. I don't know what time of day. I'll see the cville doc 2x a week maybe less throughout the whole deal. I'll get my donor cells in Richmond at VCU. I'm hoping to continue exercising, juicing, doing LOTS of EMDR, praying, spending time with the fam and trying to be as healthy and strong as possible. I'll be doing alternative therapies as well so my dance card will be full. I'll reach out for help and hope I have your prayers and positive energy.
I know I do.
More as this unfolds.
In health,
Beryl

Meeting with UVA doc on Tues

Hi,
My blood work came back from VCU and my counts are good so I'm in good shape to begin this process. I meet with Dr. Douvas at UVA next Tues to discuss the specific protocol. I'm feeling optimistic. Thank you for sending me emails with your good wishes and prayers. It means a lot and it helps me keep myself together. I spent the day with Thomas today. I was a little teary but mainly felt good. Being with him and my family and friends really binds me to this life. I was at graduation tonight, sitting with my friends, Tom and Barbara, and I was looking at the big PVCC Graduation 2015 sign and I was imagining looking at the same sign but with 2016, 2017, 2018..... I am making plans to remain strong and healthy.
I am anchoring myself to this sweet, sweet, life.
xoBeryl

Argh, not so much

Hi,
My bone marrow biopsy results from VCU weren't great. My old cells are starting to come back. I have to start chemo again and in a few months get another dose of my donor's cells. Hopefully it will work and I can avoid another big deal transplant. The chemo I'll be getting was the same stuff they used before. It was pretty mild and didn't interfere with my teaching. I'm freaked out about it. I was 6 months from my 5 year anniversary. I didn't expect this. Needless to say, I will rally and kick ass. There's no way I'm missing out on my grandbaby! So send me your best healing vibes and think of me kicking this things ass.
Heavy sigh,
Beryl
On the other hand, I looked REALLY great when I got the crappy news.